WHATTHEHELL!
It turns out that Shannen is safe and sound in God`s hand all this while.I dont know why some people esp the juniors, made up lotsa bullshit stories.This is getting out of hand.This is really stressing her grandmother.Looks like these people have nothing better to do.

From now on, i wont believe any 'i heard from blah blah blah'.I`ll just simply ignore and pray for her. Shannen WONT repeat sec one.thats like. the most ridiculous said thing ever.
and Shannen`s operation WAS A SUCCESS! BIG SUCCESS!Praise the Lord.
And Shannen is not suffering from freaking amnesia.See how this things got exagerated?mostly by juniors.WOW! SUPER helping.making people worried sick.
SO lesson learnt: dont trust anyone, unless you receive a first hand account and talk to Shan`s grandmother yourself.

So i felt much lighter today.and hung with amanda after that. i was with simone too. and we met Eugene and his friend Melvin, basking @ Novena underpass.hanging out with amanda at her house was fun! i`ll like miss her many many.:(
and her mom was mom was so nice.Amanda kept on making fun of me bowing. yeah.:PHAHAH!
I`ll MISS YOU AMANDA!BON VOYAGE AND HAVE FUN @ SYDNEY!!!

life simpy sucks.at the moment.

disaster after disaster.all at once.and they`re all related with ME.
im not complaining.i just need to let it all out or i`ll never be in peace.

My mom used to teach me things that go:
The good will sit at the right hand of the Father and live happily ever after in heaven
while
The bad will be in hell.

sometimes i really wonder, why my friends?why my family?why not the bad guy, like terrorists for example, or maybe...i dont know criminals?thought people always pray for world peace.
Of all people, why those beautiful people that i know?

these questions haunt me every night.
i thought life in singapore will be a different one, a peaceful and happy one.
i know.reality bites.life is unfair.

okay so these are the suckiest things that happened so far.i dont know whats next.

1.I got informed by Zena yesterday that Shannen was sent to the emergency operation.and then, Jayni with worse one.She may not be able to make it alive.and if she does make it, she`ll have to repeat sec one.i got a shock of my life. thats the worse nightmare that can ever happen.

2.I got a call from indon,medan that my friend`s home, Lucas` and Erlyn`s, got hit by earthquake.They said it was a minor one, but her house was wiped out and only ashes and woods left.Til today, i still have no news of them.

3.I got sick yesterday.Some weird one.Vomitting liquids.and they`re like water.no taste, no colour, no smell.

4.I got to study to prepare myself for next year.im currently in a 'holiday' mood. No intention to study AT ALL.but parents still couldnt understand me.and kept on asking me study when im online.dude, you promised to let me PLAY ALL I WANT, TILL IM SATISFIED.see, these promises are fake.just to make me study hard for Os and feel excited for the post-times.WHATTHEHELL!
there`ll never be 'playing til i drop'. never happen.its too good to be true.


maybe my life is not the suckiest now.i know there are others who suffer, ten times hundred times worse than me.told ya earlier, i wasnt complaining.i just need to let it out in my damn blog.


heard of this saying,
dying is easier
alive is harder?

I`ve tried so hard to hold back my tears and face everybody with a smile once i walked out of the ICU.
But i just couldnt help it.
Looking at her, so still and silent and helpless,asleep
truly reminds me of dear laura.
Its unbelievable that its actually becoming automatic to me to make/eat sushi on 8th feb every year.its her favourite food.Bet she misses making weird faces with me when we eat new kind of sushi with ultimate weird taste.

I`ve prayed to God all these days that i wont experience such worry anymore, that in singapore, i`ll have a new life, new friends and a happy ending. The pain of losing someone youre so close to, its great, unimaginable and unspeakable. I never want to experience such pain ever again.

To all bloggers out there who bitch about friends in posts, think again.
Cherish your frienship while you can.Or it will be too late and you`ll never live in peace ever again. Your mind will be filled with "if only"s... and wishing that you can turn back time.

I`ll visit shannen again tomorrow, but i`ll be stronger. The only way to spur her on to recover and live again, is to remain calm and smile, praying for her all day.
Though the doctor is kinda irritated with the no. of people coming.how nice.
Well, there is only one shannen in this world and she is the shannen that enter my life.

God bless Felicia.

world lets pray with me.

Dear God,
an innocent, precious life is in danger
help her to overcome the pain she has to bear
please dont take her away
for she is still someone young with pure heart
and humble mind
Oh Lord, dont take another friend of mine away
this way, this cruel way
its painful to those around her
especially her family
please help her to recover
and let no complications occur so that
she is still as perfect as she was before
God, please watch over her
please save her from any critical danger
that may disadvantage her in any way in the future
Lord give her another chance
to live again
and may she be someone stronger
someone who will not runaway
someone who will continue having faith in You

We pray this through Christ our Lord
Amen.

so O`s OVER! WOOOOOOO

so ive been mugging chem since morning.manage to finish 2 books of mcqs.
now i got the brain damage disease. oh great!


So i`ve been going to the gym.every morning.and doing more sit ups since i have nothing to worry about time to study anymore.
ABS here i go! hahha shane`s abs pop out in my head whenever i did sit ups.
i think i should do sports during break instead of going online.
since im not so tall, i have to exercise more to look taller.
mom said if i lose a few weights, i can look slightly taller.and nicer.

easy to say but hard to do.

thanks to O`s i`ve lost 3 kg.havent weigh myself these days cos im lazy.im not THAT obssessed with mine.

notes to cindy: i`ve tried.i`ve experienced.when you skip meals, you tend to snack. it may sounds light and little, but in fact, it has way more calories and carbo than rice.so advise to you, eat 3 meals a day properly.EXERCISING is the most logical, simple secret to a 'woohoo body'.


OH NO! my new neighbour is a freakking TWIT! she blasts chinese songs every night.im going crazy!i was hoping for some funky new girl in town or people from korea or japan. turns out to be a family from china.God bless me.

i got my heels.
and costs below $30
but its super high and thin.for me.



I THINK IM TOO AMBITIOUS FOR A BEGINNER...


i`ve been practising with my neighbour to walk.it supposed to be SHANNEN but she stays far far away and i cant go out much now cos have to study for my last 2 papers.
Im glad i have a neighbour that is professional enough to teach me how to walk.


SHE IS SO FIERCE i tell you.
she`ll start smacking my ass when i didnt walk properly.
its hard alright, please understand.
its like you`re walking on a knife.gosh.


of course, expected, i fell a few times.A FEW TIMES is kinda good for a beginner (:
heh.but yeah, blue black all over my poor butt and hips.im glad theres no scars or blister on my legs.mhm.at least the blueblacks are hidden:D



Yes veron, i hope american schools wont be like the one portrayed in 'mean girls' too.im scared.what if i become one of them? HAHAHA scary!
i`ll stick to being asian geeks.i think its the savest and best.you dont get into back-stabbing wars and troubles.hate the B word.



I`ve studied bio.its quite fun.i mean, now that o`s are almost over, im thinking what to do next.plenty of time for me.but then again, it will be my last few days here so i gotta make the best out of them.hang with all my friends.yay.im bad at time management though.


oh well...ciao.

damn i just broke my friend`s new skate deck.i felt soooo bad.:/ rah! it costs $500! i dont know where to get that much money from.

O`s has unofficially ended for me! MUAHAHAHAHAHA
im loving every single second of it.dude, it feels great.

anyway, since SOME PEOPLE think that my previous skin is BLINDING (i think its cool), i decided to be NICE and change.YAY.its blue.

and tsk, stop staring at the puny picture there.i know he`s hot.i understand.i wish i look like that.LOL

so i`ve been shopping.and yesterday was with jayni and freda.later shannen, jloh and damien came along.My legs were breaking, they became as soft as slug.i cant even walk properly.mhhm.
we started at far east all the way to robinson centre point,and end up with dinner at cine.WOW.from 2 pm to like 9 plus
IT WAS RIDICULOUSLY HORRIBLE, but with the people i went with, i was happy despite the pain i have to bear.
good news: i only managed to get a can of hair mousse.3cheers for me.

I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO WALK ON HEELS.DESPERATELY.come on man.or i`ll be the shortest in the ballroom.
GO FELS GO!

and i just recently viewed veronica`s blog. DUDE!
ANGELS AND DEMONS is coming soon in cinemas.mid of 2009.im SO watching.:D

life is so beautiful.


okay, 1 month and 2 days away to 'good bye singapore'.
nownow, this sucks.:(

-FELS-
22 april 1992
sixteen
ijtp
food lover
skater
percussionist
cant survive without music
LOVES GASPARD ULLIEL